Lost My Friends

作曲/作曲/编曲/混音/录音/演唱：西门周安
Lost My Friends是一首听感欢乐、内容却充满无奈悲哀之情的歌曲。歌曲内容在概念上承接西门周安上一张全长专辑《chinese parenting》的B面主题，歌词依旧反映出西门周安个人的真实经历，探讨了面对友情彻底破灭的心路历程。
编曲上，歌曲承接上一首Radio后副歌部分的清爽童真合成器氛围，从一段iPhone手机铃声的采样循环中发展而来，用909鼓机构筑起90年代的经典House节奏，铃铛与震荡合成器的搭配使得听感清爽而畅快，但却是让人在悲伤中起舞的舞曲音乐。

My mama told me when I was young
She did not have any friends sticking around
I thought that she didn’t know how to be in the crowd
But then she told me that she was just shutting her mouth
但是我的情况并不一样
他们对我无求 反而有期望
我们一定能走到生命的尽头不相忘

抱歉你机缘巧合没有遇上
与自己品性相当的人在身旁
志趣相投的玩闹就像是梦一场
So don’t blame me for that I thought that this will last long
但是事情总是会变糟糕
也许是我心底自毁倾向
最后的疯狂就像力竭而断裂的弹簧

But then there’s something that I found
They’re playing like my dad and mum
Everything that I did was so wrong
I’m not here to please anyone
I don’t wanna live the way you want

I have lost all my friend
Can’ believe that this is my end
I made a wish to keep them as my fam
I don’t wanna defend myself
This is who I am
I lost part of me but I am not broken
一路太长 有时会忘
我们本来就有不同的方向
我会退让 但不原谅
有些话说过了就不一样

Sometime people I love the most could hurt me
In a way nobody else ever did
I never ever would’ve predict they’d say something like this
That’s why I’m sure this friend is lost for good absolutely
我先采取行动中止关系
但彻骨言语才是最初契机
情绪化吐字不考虑但总有个边际

But then there’s something that I found
They’re playing like my dad and mum
Everything that I did was so wrong
I’m not here to please anyone
I don’t wanna live the way you want

I have lost all my friend
Can’ believe that this is my end
I made a wish to keep them as my fam
I don’t wanna defend myself
This is who I am
I lost part of me but I am not broken
一路太长 有时会忘
我们本来就有不同的方向
我会退让 但不原谅
有些话说过了就不一样