(17岁) Mama's Lullaby

起床时眼睛都还没睁开
就准备要穿上制服
边哭著说想要待在家里
当时没人告诉我
在学校的那段期间
在单纯的那段时光
是再也不回去的了

我曾想熬到半夜不睡
我曾想去逛街 买东买西
我曾想亲吻 嫁给隔壁那个男孩
我想要不透过电话 亲眼见到我爸爸
我曾想要穿高跟鞋跟项链
我曾想不害怕黑暗 不害怕怪物
当时 妈妈会唱著这么一首摇篮曲

睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 闭上眼睛吧

又一堂钢琴课
又一个没拼对的单子
还错过我想看的电视节目
我在那边哭著喊著
幼小的我 其实已经慢慢长成理想的样子了
只是当时的我 什么都不知道罢了

我不懂每个选择都会造成不同的结局
我不懂每次教训都会让我变得聪明些
我不懂每一个梦想都会在心里发芽
也不懂每一个转角 都会有不同的惊喜
我不懂我恨的每个问题最终都会有解答
也不懂每条伤痕最终会好转
但我总会记得妈妈睡前唱的摇篮曲

睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 闭上眼睛吧
睡吧 睡吧
上床睡吧 闭上眼睛吧

现在我只想在半夜前爬上床睡觉
现在我不再需要任何想要的东西了
现在我知道某一天我会遇见那个人的
现在我也知道 人生有时就是不公平的
也知道 高跟鞋不是外表看起来那样的光鲜亮丽
更知道 怪物永远都不是藏在黑暗里
当我不知道该怎么做时
永远都有妈妈的摇篮曲陪伴著
在很混乱的时候
永远都有著那首摇篮曲

Waking up with my eyes close
Put on my uniform
Crying to stay at home
No one told me
Back in the days in school
The age of innocence
I won’t be like that no more
I would wanna be stayin’ up late till midnight
I would wanna go shopping and buy everything I like
I would wanna kiss and marry the boy next door
I wanna see my dad instead of talking on phone
I would wanna wear high heels and necklaces
Wouldn’t wanna be afraid of the dark when the monsters crawl
While my mama will sing me her lullaby that goes...
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Another piano course
The word I never spelt right
And missed my favourite show
Shouting out loud
Back then when I was tiny
My path starts to show
But little did I know
That every choice I ever made makes a difference
That every lesson I ever learned makes me wiser
That every dream I ever dreamed starts to glow
That every turn I take there are surprises await
That every question I ever hate will be solved
That every bleeding scar will soon be better
Cause remember how mama used to sing me her lullaby
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Sleepy sleepy, sleepy sleepy
Go to bed, close your eyes
Now I wanna stuck into my bed before midnight
Now I wouldn’t need to have everything that I like
And I’m gonna meet someone at some point in my life
Now I realise life sometimes just won’t treat you kind
High heels aren’t what they seem on the outside so bright
And the dark won’t be where the monsters hide
When I wouldn’t know what to do
There’s the lullaby
It gets me through the times, mama’s lullaby