(24岁) But her

我早就知道你的小把戏了
但这样的心痛 我也好久没经历到了
以为我会变得理性
但在12年来回拉扯后
你终究还是我的死穴啊

我的朋友 他们说你交新对象了
不是任何女生 就是她
我感受到自己的恐惧
因为她也许就是你的馀生了
毕竟她拥有我给不了你的平凡

你昨晚打来了电话
另一头的你听起来非常笃定
你说 你放弃我们了 你不想再奋斗了

很痛 很痛
你打破了我们的约定 牵起了她
我明明就还在这里坚持著
你要我怎么用这种心态好好活著呢
很痛 很痛
当你拥有她的身体 跟我的心
你被幻觉淹没 被预设蛊惑
我还曾出现在你脑中吗？

你呀 你不是认真的吧
你是第一个给我家的感觉的人
你把我推开 但你不知道俗话说的
“家就是心之所在”吗？
我呀 我也知道自己很可悲
紧抓著一个你已经遗弃的东西
说我傻 说我笨
但别说我愚蠢
毕竟你明明还留下了这么多线索

周五的夜晚 你正在为她点蜡烛吧
而我也感受到自己慢慢淡出你的世界了

很痛 很痛
你打破了我们的约定 牵起了她
我明明就还在这里坚持著
你要我怎么用这种心态好好活著呢
很痛 很痛
当你拥有她的身体 跟我的心
你被幻觉淹没 被预设蛊惑
我还曾出现在你脑中吗？
很痛 很痛
好似你们俩正在等我离开一样
因为你们知道我的存在
正是阻碍你们最大的原因
很痛 很痛
我到底该相信什么呢
我无法拼凑出完整的拼图
但你还是会想起我的吧
会的吧 我是对的吧

I knew your little games
But it’s been a while
Since this kind of heartbreak
Thought I’d be more rational
Twelve years of tug of war
You’re my weak spot after all
My friends, they told me you got a new girl
Not just anyone but her
The fear of mine knowing she might be the one
‘Cause she’s got everything I couldn’t give
You called last night
Sounded so firm on the other side
Saying you, you gave us up
That you fought enough
And it hurts
You broke our promise and held her hand
Now tell me how could I possibly live with that
When I’m still here trying to fight?
And it hurts
When you took her body and my heart
You drown in illusions
And trust your assumptions
But do I still cross your mind?
You, tell me you’re not serious
You gave me the picture of home
You pushed me away
But don’t you know what they say
That home is where your heart is
I, I know it’s pathetic
To be holding on what you left
Call me dumb, call me stupid
But don’t call me foolish
‘Cause you left the breadcrumbs behind
It’s Friday night
And you’re putting on candlelights
And I feel myself fading out of your life
And it hurts
You broke our promise and held her hand
Now tell me how could I possibly live with that
When I’m still here trying to fight?
And it hurts
When you took her body and my heart
You drown in illusions
And trust your assumptions
But do I still cross your mind?
And it hurts
Like you’re waiting for me to be gone
‘Cause you knew my existence was the only thing
That stopped you two carrying on
And it hurts
What to believe, what to not?
The pieces of puzzle I couldn’t add up
I still do cross your mind
Tell me I’m right
Tell me I’m right