30 but not an adult

2026.8.24

Sometimes I feel weird that I’m almost 30
People get married but im still wondering
Am I even an adult? (What???)
I don’t feel like an adult, but….

I can take myself everywhere
going out at night without being questioned where

I can control my lust and say yes or
No I feel pain but I still pretend (that’s love)

Is adult a freedom or is it a performance
There’s no one pay me to act (or pay a little)
Is adult a freedom or is it a performance
There’s no one pay me to act
So why don’t you give me a brochure on
How to become an adult (I can learn I can learn)

I have jobs I have friends I can pay (who cares)
and afford whatever I get~~~
I am already doing all these even I am not an adult
So what’s an adult? What’s adulthood?

Is adult a freedom or is it a performance
There’s no one pay me to act
Is adult a freedom or is it a performance
There’s no one pay me to act
So why don’t you give me a brochure on
How to become an adult

If no one’s watching, am I still an adult?
I think I’ll become one when I really get my car
I’ll become the one when I really have someone I love

Is adult a freedom or is it a performance
Maybe I already am one
I just can’t believe people call this an adult
A grownup or whatever

Bullshit