满月

在约分了一切表象之后，我只剩下一个微小的支点，确确实实地撑起自己。支点代表著仍然与现实相连，是一个我与世界的信物。我清醒地看著世界在我周围流转，唯我在原地停留。目光带领意识，要动或要停，都不是我要决定。于是我被迫直视那些在月背的暗处，那些黑得像深渊的虚空，终于被我看得透出光亮。

这是一首关于封闭循环与低限存在的歌。它不试图给出答案，只忠实地记录著：我们不可避免而不由自主地下沉，缓慢地被包覆在流体之中、起点和终点在生命中的某处相遇，悲哀但圆满地呼应著宿命。

After stripping away every surface and illusion, I am left with a single, fragile point of support—small, yet solid enough to hold me upright. It stands for my remaining connection to reality, a token exchanged between the world and me. I watch, fully awake, as everything moves around me while I remain still. My gaze pulls my consciousness along; whether to move or to stop is no longer a choice I get to make.
So I am forced to look directly into what hides on the far side of the moon—those voids as dark as an abyss. And at last, I see them clearly enough for light to begin to seep through.
This is a song about closed loops and existence at its lowest threshold. It does not seek to offer answers. It simply bears witness: to our inevitable, involuntary descent; to the slow way we are enveloped by the current; to the moment when beginnings and endings meet somewhere within a life, echoing fate with a sadness that is, somehow, complete.

词/曲：郑敬儒
编曲：deca joins

我全身的重量能轻易把我击垮
让我坍塌
把我蒸发
我和我的倒影
没有出口的圆圈
月亮的阴暗面
它一直在那
只是我看不见
无可避免
无路可退
倒也无所谓
我还有这支香烟
我只剩这支香烟
倒也无所谓
我眼睛里的飞鸟
在屋顶筑巢
用整夜眺望
整夜眺望
我心里的空缺
河流的起点
流速趋缓
全都被抽干
无可避免
无路可退
倒也无所谓
我还有这支香烟
我只剩这支香烟
倒也无所谓

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词曲 songwriting｜郑敬儒 Cheng Ching Ju
编曲 arrangement｜deca joins
制作 producer｜deca joins

主唱 / 合成器 vocals/ synth｜郑敬儒 Cheng Ching Ju
电吉他 electric guitar｜杨尚桦 Yang Shang Hua
贝斯 bass｜谢俊彦 Xie Jun Yan
鼓组 / 打击乐器 drums / percussion｜杜哲欣 Tu Che Hsin

录音师 recording engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
混音师 mixing engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
母带后期工程师 mastering engineer｜洪浚程 Hong Jyun Cheng
混音 / 母带工作室 mixing / mastering studio｜陋室微光 Those Studio,MoriSound Studio