Those Who Stayed (A Letter)

A letter to those I've Hurt

I know I let you down
I’m sorry
For the damage that I’ve done to those who stayed
I didn’t want it to end this way
Oh, but I’m hoping
That I can say a few words
Before you turn away
I’ve laid down all my pride

I know these words won’t make it right
But please just hear me out this time
Can’t keep living a lie
I’m done hiding

I’ll face myself
I know it hurts
I’m still ashamed
Of who I’ve become
I’m still learning
One step at a time
I can’t erase
The pain that I caused

And I know
That I
Hurt a lotta people on the way
Oh, I know
I hurt a lotta friends who stood by my side
I feel the weight today
Of what I put you through
I’m so selfish

People don’t trust me anymore
And I don’t blame them at all
I did this to myself
I should’ve known
Should’ve known better
Than to burn those bridges just to feel warm

Huh
Guess you were right all along

I have a lotta bad habits
Saying “I’ll change” is one
Oh, what a classic
Guess I’m just pathetic
I keep talking ’bout tomorrow
Like that fixes what I’ve done

I don’t get to call this healing
Just because I wrote a song
I could sing it like I mean it
And still get tomorrow wrong

Even if you never call
Even if you never see
I still have to make these changes
Without you here to carry me

You’ve heard me say all this before
I wish it wasn’t true
I’m trying not to make this song
One more thing I put you through

You can hear me and still hate this
You can love me and still leave
I’m not asking for an answer
Thank you for listening to me